As I am typing this, I am somehow in a state of calm. I hear the melodies of Ingrid Michaelson singing, "All that I know is i'm breathing" and she reminds me that I am here, I am present, and I am important. I am so full of excitement, nerves, emotion, and above everything (regardless of my lack of this in the past) I feel SO grateful for this moment, the moments that have come before this, and the moments in the future (both in Australia and beyond).
Right now is the last time i'll be typing on my computer. I'm slowly noticing how fast I can type on this thing and i'm wondering if maybe that's a sign that I wrote one too many research papers this semester. Today I leave my friends and family, my constant wifi, my computer, and a place I consider to be one of my homes in exchange for experiences and places absolutely OUTSIDE my comfort zone.
Now, I can't say that i'm beyond worried, I feel a little too prepared in all honesty (in fair dinkum as the Aussies would say). I've travelled to 3 different continents so far (granted one of them is North America). I went to Europe with my family, Africa with my missions team, and now here I am, feeling slightly like David walking into the Lion's den alone. I'm going to meet 17 new people that I know nothing about and am about to spend an entire month with in a different country. I've done this before, I've moved multiple times, I've been left alone, I've learned how to make friends and become a stronger person because of it.
An emotion just washed over me while thinking about that because, I know that I have done this before. I think that the reason why I worry is because in the past i've always judged everyone before I met them, only to find out that I loved the people I met. I know that all of these people are just as nervous, if not more nervous to leave their own bubble and branch out and honestly, I can't wait to be freaking out with each and everyone of them.
I named this blog Homes of My Heart because thats exactly what I have in this life. Homes. Not just one home, but homes all over the place. I have a home in Chicago where I consider growing up, I have a home in Azusa where I live now and connect with friends today, I have a home in Wisconsin with my family and tradition, I have a home in Samfya, Zambia in the little villages that ache for God's Mercy, I have a home in Danville where I learned how to be a kid and today learned how to move on. I know that because of my heart and the ways that God has shown me his heart, I will be making a home out of Australia. I pray that God would build a strong foundation for this home and provide me with the opportunities to be a witness to others in order to build this home.
I'm so excited for this adventure. But I can't stress enough that I need to do this all relying on God and his loving spirit. My faith hasn't been strong in the past couple of months and now I'm slowly finding myself getting lost in the Grace of God (borrowed that line from Erica Hedges).
So there you have it, an Adventure begins today and I can't wait to explore everything and share it all with everyone! Here we go!
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